I am not alone with these feelings. Everyone has a way of coping with their scale. Some people take a vacation to clear their minds, some people choose to eat the entire ice cream container in one sitting, or still others choose a much lonelier, and addicting , escape from their depression. I on the other hand, have found there is only one way I feel better, inside and out, and helps balance my scale.
I love to run.
When I run, everything around me goes away, and I'm only left with my wandering thoughts. And the cars. Why do cars always seem to swerve toward me, even though I'm actually in the gravel, far out of their way? I'd like to wave a special finger signal to them, but I'm too busy trying to save my life. I digress.
I control everything when I run. My legs, my breathing, and most importantly, my music in my I Phone. Everything I do when I run is just for me. When I feel that I can't run any farther, I just think of all things I have had to overcome these past two years, and can find the strength to push on just a little more.
I continue to set goals for myself. By next spring I would like to be able to run a half marathon. Will life allow me to do this? Pretty uncertain at this point, but it gives me something to help keep my scale even. It gives me something.
To me, running is just like the tree behind me in the picture. If you don't take time to look closely at yourself and your needs, you may just forget what the most important thing is.
Strength to hold on.